Hi so its 2014! So i think i want to get back on writing because i want too and i can. And i honestly feel like slapping myself for not writing on here for the past few months. Because i have this picture of me 10 years later i would scroll through this page and laugh at my own stupid adolescent self. So im so mad but nah. Im gonna recap all the good things that had happened from september 2013 untill now.
oh yes of course i had pmr on october which also fell on my birthday. My 15th birthday that was full with the mixture of happiness and pure sadness like i cried on my fucking birthday okay. The thing is i remember i woke up that morning, EARLY for maths class at the masjid haha lmao then i was like "oh its a brand new day and the day for maths paper is getting near ha babi" then i checked the date " eh ya allah birthday aku ek" then the slapping and gaping at myself started like i just cant believe i turned 15 lol. And i opened wechat and i only got one wish(eh?) from hasif hahahah. My friends pundeh semua tidur awal bcs pmr siala. So like ugh i dont feel like comfortable reminiscing that day it was just all trashy okay. Then boom pmr was over. The last day we all went to mcdonalds WHICH ALL OF THESE IVE ALREADY TYPED FUCK THIS SHIT OKAY PROCEED TO RESULTS DAY.
Alhamdulillah i got what i wanted the first year i got into highschool. To make them happy again with my results. Im so happy seeing them happy but still nak iphone ah ok bye. Results day paling tak nak lupa. So like masa tu i already thought about it like my name after amirah's name what if they dont call my name hah then they called my name! i cried. A lot. Lot. Lot. And mom didnt noticed it was my name so like she stayed there at her chair like i fucking stand there with people's eyes all on me haish maluuuu. Yeh we called dad atok semua balik i went straight to bed hehe ngantok ah pas nanges ko pe tahu. Pastu we had another hangout kAT JUSCO GAK lol. So biasa topic results still panas time tu we watched apa tah chinese movie lawan pedang pastu ada perempuan ni witch leh tukar jadi kucing lawa peh gempak arr. Yang penting banyak keluar la duit pun ehehe .
Baam first day of school! I love first day of school. I remember i tippy ran towards them yang kat stage tu and terus fixed my shoelace lol. That week 3 hari je sekolah and that week is everything and also the next's week. Bcs pastu start orang keluar pergi asrama pe pundek semua ha nank.magjes rindu. I want to list those ppl yang pindah. First intake for teknik, nurin and ika got the same school like i still cant believe that they went to that school and also syuk pondan tu and also aiman oh mygod pondans i sekalian gi teknik vokay like dua ekor ni hah paling miang jumpa je menggatal mengacau ya allah rindu. Also there it went after 1 week, GRADUAFUCKINGTION DAY. God i miss graduation day so much..it was the best day of the entire month of january. We all reunited back. Khaty from ampang pun datang for graduation day nurin and ika pun balik. Haih gamat betul hari tu. Like sekolah tu kitaorang punya haha bye. So happy to see all of us naik pentas accepting our files mana taknya almost all the teachers doubted especially us sebab dalam kelas paling memekak cam sial kat luar kelas pun memekak so bila dapat proved them wrong the sastification is there okay. So yes so many fucking selfies hahaha.
and also the last week for the teknik's kids the sbp's results came out. Which brutally honest i dont really care but seeing them all leaving to another school i cant help but feel like i want it too. I set my hopes high and i didnt get it. Even rayuan pun tk terima im a fucking trash thanks gov. And ain got sbp farah too. And the same week that was the last week for these sbp's kids mrsm's results came out. Nisa and nurin got it. Haih ni nak nangis. Satu satu keluar satu satu tinggalkan aku satu satu tinggalkan aku kat sekolah tu survive cam mana tah dorang takde. but the goods behind all of these ika came back. So at least i have ummi and ika my day maker. So life at school basically us three je sekarang. But i already knew all of these is coming. So far im doing good but still hoping wishing i could turn back time. I can sum up for the early two months ive cried the most ive ever cried in a year. Two months baru but macam macam jadi it was so unreal. My heart aches saying that. Like in literal. I dont ever think i could handle it but look im still here! just with more bullshits behind me.
March 2013 is the month where i finally think i am free in any kind of types of freedoms ever existed. I let them all go. I am so happy and annoyed at the same time. I dont know whether to feel happy or annoyed at the fact that my used to be bestfriend that used to be nothing but a burden to me that burns those holes bigger than it was now officially hates me and couldnt even stand me in person. I honestly want to say thank u for doing that bc honestly tak.payah la aku nak deal dengan bullshit kau lagi pompuan hahahah i swear guys i hope ur new bestfriend can bare ur fakeness like i did for two years. Not that i hate u for doing that not that im denying that ur actually one of the person that helps me in many things that i dont think i could reply but its just that u have so much negativity in u im so SO so so so fucking uncomfortable. I feel like i need to stay away and not gettin myself in the middle of people like this. If u still dont get it ill make it simple, i dont like to be ur friend anymore. Yes say those words uve been dying to tell me i dont give a fuck. I know i made the right desicion. If u think im wrong go! suck! a! fuck! im sick of all of these i just want to get all of it over but in a good way that is not involving hating and stuffs. But u make it worse so imma let it be. Im tired okay.
Enough. So exams has already started so far being a pure science student i can conclude that i must not fooling around this year or im gonna fucking flop!
oh yes of course i had pmr on october which also fell on my birthday. My 15th birthday that was full with the mixture of happiness and pure sadness like i cried on my fucking birthday okay. The thing is i remember i woke up that morning, EARLY for maths class at the masjid haha lmao then i was like "oh its a brand new day and the day for maths paper is getting near ha babi" then i checked the date " eh ya allah birthday aku ek" then the slapping and gaping at myself started like i just cant believe i turned 15 lol. And i opened wechat and i only got one wish(eh?) from hasif hahahah. My friends pundeh semua tidur awal bcs pmr siala. So like ugh i dont feel like comfortable reminiscing that day it was just all trashy okay. Then boom pmr was over. The last day we all went to mcdonalds WHICH ALL OF THESE IVE ALREADY TYPED FUCK THIS SHIT OKAY PROCEED TO RESULTS DAY.
Alhamdulillah i got what i wanted the first year i got into highschool. To make them happy again with my results. Im so happy seeing them happy but still nak iphone ah ok bye. Results day paling tak nak lupa. So like masa tu i already thought about it like my name after amirah's name what if they dont call my name hah then they called my name! i cried. A lot. Lot. Lot. And mom didnt noticed it was my name so like she stayed there at her chair like i fucking stand there with people's eyes all on me haish maluuuu. Yeh we called dad atok semua balik i went straight to bed hehe ngantok ah pas nanges ko pe tahu. Pastu we had another hangout kAT JUSCO GAK lol. So biasa topic results still panas time tu we watched apa tah chinese movie lawan pedang pastu ada perempuan ni witch leh tukar jadi kucing lawa peh gempak arr. Yang penting banyak keluar la duit pun ehehe .
Baam first day of school! I love first day of school. I remember i tippy ran towards them yang kat stage tu and terus fixed my shoelace lol. That week 3 hari je sekolah and that week is everything and also the next's week. Bcs pastu start orang keluar pergi asrama pe pundek semua ha nank.magjes rindu. I want to list those ppl yang pindah. First intake for teknik, nurin and ika got the same school like i still cant believe that they went to that school and also syuk pondan tu and also aiman oh mygod pondans i sekalian gi teknik vokay like dua ekor ni hah paling miang jumpa je menggatal mengacau ya allah rindu. Also there it went after 1 week, GRADUAFUCKINGTION DAY. God i miss graduation day so much..it was the best day of the entire month of january. We all reunited back. Khaty from ampang pun datang for graduation day nurin and ika pun balik. Haih gamat betul hari tu. Like sekolah tu kitaorang punya haha bye. So happy to see all of us naik pentas accepting our files mana taknya almost all the teachers doubted especially us sebab dalam kelas paling memekak cam sial kat luar kelas pun memekak so bila dapat proved them wrong the sastification is there okay. So yes so many fucking selfies hahaha.
and also the last week for the teknik's kids the sbp's results came out. Which brutally honest i dont really care but seeing them all leaving to another school i cant help but feel like i want it too. I set my hopes high and i didnt get it. Even rayuan pun tk terima im a fucking trash thanks gov. And ain got sbp farah too. And the same week that was the last week for these sbp's kids mrsm's results came out. Nisa and nurin got it. Haih ni nak nangis. Satu satu keluar satu satu tinggalkan aku satu satu tinggalkan aku kat sekolah tu survive cam mana tah dorang takde. but the goods behind all of these ika came back. So at least i have ummi and ika my day maker. So life at school basically us three je sekarang. But i already knew all of these is coming. So far im doing good but still hoping wishing i could turn back time. I can sum up for the early two months ive cried the most ive ever cried in a year. Two months baru but macam macam jadi it was so unreal. My heart aches saying that. Like in literal. I dont ever think i could handle it but look im still here! just with more bullshits behind me.
March 2013 is the month where i finally think i am free in any kind of types of freedoms ever existed. I let them all go. I am so happy and annoyed at the same time. I dont know whether to feel happy or annoyed at the fact that my used to be bestfriend that used to be nothing but a burden to me that burns those holes bigger than it was now officially hates me and couldnt even stand me in person. I honestly want to say thank u for doing that bc honestly tak.payah la aku nak deal dengan bullshit kau lagi pompuan hahahah i swear guys i hope ur new bestfriend can bare ur fakeness like i did for two years. Not that i hate u for doing that not that im denying that ur actually one of the person that helps me in many things that i dont think i could reply but its just that u have so much negativity in u im so SO so so so fucking uncomfortable. I feel like i need to stay away and not gettin myself in the middle of people like this. If u still dont get it ill make it simple, i dont like to be ur friend anymore. Yes say those words uve been dying to tell me i dont give a fuck. I know i made the right desicion. If u think im wrong go! suck! a! fuck! im sick of all of these i just want to get all of it over but in a good way that is not involving hating and stuffs. But u make it worse so imma let it be. Im tired okay.
Enough. So exams has already started so far being a pure science student i can conclude that i must not fooling around this year or im gonna fucking flop!
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