Life.

I wake up every morning with million thoughts wandering. Is today is going to be bad or just fine or great. My negative first impression never once left my mind. It is so hard to live life like this. I want to be more selfless and positive person. But i guess people around me treats me differently. At home, i am the fat and lifeless girl. Every second of my life at home is all about being the lefted ones and sad and pathetic and no one cares about. I tend to be a quiet person (not that i am talkactive i have always been the quiet ones) more quieter because there is nothing to talk about. Nothing to laugh about. So, lets make it easy i live in a family that is basically full of ignorant. My mom or my dad never once asked me about my day at school. Never once asked about my friends. Seldomly asked about my studies. Frankly they dont even provide the basics things that completes my life. I dont care if that is the way they treated their children. I never wanted a new and more better parents. I am grateful to have them by my side. After all these years, the only thing i have wanted for so long is their moral support. I remember i went home with my teacher when i was standard five in a saturday school session for report cards day. None of them showed up. Most meetings within teachers and parents they didnt showed up. Recently, my majlis ikrar for pmr they didnt showed up. I get it they were busy. But really? Just a half day okay. This is why i have trust issues with them. They promised they will come. They gave me hopes. And i hate that.
So far the only distraction for me is school. School has been so great with my crazy friends. I take back my words saying school is sucks(no) because with them is the only time i can be my self. And laugh all day forget about all the shits i have been through. School is the only getaway. I would like to say a tremendous thank you to all my friends for making me laugh everyday. I love you all so strong and hope our friendship will lasts till jannah.

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